Haha i feel like eating a big chocolate banana cake all of a sudden.
Oh yeah wow it's been a long time since i blogged.
Whoo.
Haha, tmr is the last paper for prelims!
MCQ, gotta study still haha.
Physics is so hard, gotta try cram in those formulas haha.
Shall go study now.
Stop getting distracted haha!
Oh yeah wow it's been a long time since i blogged.
Whoo.
Haha, tmr is the last paper for prelims!
MCQ, gotta study still haha.
Physics is so hard, gotta try cram in those formulas haha.
Shall go study now.
Stop getting distracted haha!
- Mood:
high
Today's the first day of prelims.
Didn't turn out well haha.
Sigh, topics i study for SS didn't come out.
Lucky i had abit of nonsense to squeeze me through.
Oh well more days to come.
Gotta do well!
She's finding me out
It's bringing me down
Cause nothings as hard as the first time
I'm fooling myself
She'll never be mine
It's to late now
Didn't turn out well haha.
Sigh, topics i study for SS didn't come out.
Lucky i had abit of nonsense to squeeze me through.
Oh well more days to come.
Gotta do well!
She's finding me out
It's bringing me down
Cause nothings as hard as the first time
I'm fooling myself
She'll never be mine
It's to late now
- Mood:
uncomfortable
Chinese results tmr!
I mean today haha.
Hmm kinda forgot about it haha.
Shit really scared, it all depends on this.
If i get bad grades, then i gotta start POA chionging.
Focus, attention, success.
Gotta really just focus.
O's o's o's.
After that then other things can come but now.
O's first.
It'll all get better in time.
Slowly.
"We believe God wants you to know...
... that doubt is the greatest gift, - it's the space between two certainties.
I mean today haha.
Hmm kinda forgot about it haha.
Shit really scared, it all depends on this.
If i get bad grades, then i gotta start POA chionging.
Focus, attention, success.
Gotta really just focus.
O's o's o's.
After that then other things can come but now.
O's first.
It'll all get better in time.
Slowly.
"We believe God wants you to know...
... that doubt is the greatest gift, - it's the space between two certainties.
Any change on its way from one place of stability to the next one, passes through a period of doubt. Your old perspective has to disintegrate, and doubt comes in for a visit - even if only for a moment, before the new perspective takes root. Doubt is your greatest gift, because from doubt you can go anywhere."
- Mood:
tired
The party was awesome last night.
It cheered me up quite abit.
Really drank till we were high last night.
Really felt like crap.
But oh well, life has to go on.
Woke up in the morning and the thought came back again.
Sigh.
But it was good ytd just talking to my good friends.
Drank to the problems, that they may be gone.
The journey ahead is gonna be even harder.
I've really gotta force myself to let go.
It's gonna be so very hard.
And i don't know if i can really bring myself to do it.
But if i don't, i'd make things even worse.
Sometimes i just hoped things weren't so complicated.
And everything would just go smoothly.
Sometimes i ask myself, why everything i do seems wrong.
Gotta really forget it now.
I don't want to, but i have no choice..
"We believe God wants you to know...
... that it is time to finally forgive yourself.
It cheered me up quite abit.
Really drank till we were high last night.
Really felt like crap.
But oh well, life has to go on.
Woke up in the morning and the thought came back again.
Sigh.
But it was good ytd just talking to my good friends.
Drank to the problems, that they may be gone.
The journey ahead is gonna be even harder.
I've really gotta force myself to let go.
It's gonna be so very hard.
And i don't know if i can really bring myself to do it.
But if i don't, i'd make things even worse.
Sometimes i just hoped things weren't so complicated.
And everything would just go smoothly.
Sometimes i ask myself, why everything i do seems wrong.
Gotta really forget it now.
I don't want to, but i have no choice..
"We believe God wants you to know...
... that it is time to finally forgive yourself.
You've carried the guilt, the shame for long enough. You've kept your wounds open for long enough. The time has to come to let go, to heal. Keep the lessons and let the pain heal. Yes, you know what we are talking about it."
- Mood:
lonely
It's my birthday today.
Well happy birthday to me.
Gotta wake up in a few hours time.
Serve mass and then come home rest then frisbee.
Then my party.
I hope it'll be fun i guess.
It's my day today, i just wanna be happy that's all.
I'm trying my best to get the feeling away.
Everything is kinda hurting inside.
But well, what's the use, it's my birthday.
At least i could try to be happy and enjoy this day.
"We believe God wants you to know...
... that you can use any excuse to be happy.
Well happy birthday to me.
Gotta wake up in a few hours time.
Serve mass and then come home rest then frisbee.
Then my party.
I hope it'll be fun i guess.
It's my day today, i just wanna be happy that's all.
I'm trying my best to get the feeling away.
Everything is kinda hurting inside.
But well, what's the use, it's my birthday.
At least i could try to be happy and enjoy this day.
"We believe God wants you to know...
... that you can use any excuse to be happy.
You know how sometimes it seems that life is just throwing you one curved ball after another? Well, guess what, - you have a great way to respond! - you can use any excuse, any at all to be happy. Don't just soap your body in the shower - caress it and receive pleasure from touching and being touched. Don't just walk on the street - enjoy the fragrances of the trees and the flowers on your way. Don't just drive your car - sing karaoke to your favorite radio station."
Focus focus.
I know i know.
I'm very very tired of it.
But if i stop and rest for one day.
I'll end up failing.
If i fail, i can say goodbye to everything.
It really feels tied up inside.
But so what, i'll tear down these walls, and break away from these chains.
I'll try my best and do everything.
All just to gain your trust.
Focus, i know..
Focus focus.
I know i know.
I'm very very tired of it.
But if i stop and rest for one day.
I'll end up failing.
If i fail, i can say goodbye to everything.
It really feels tied up inside.
But so what, i'll tear down these walls, and break away from these chains.
I'll try my best and do everything.
All just to gain your trust.
Focus, i know..
- Mood:
sad
Well it's the end of the week again.
This week hasn't really been a productive week.
I think i'm not gonna get a good pass this time round on my chem test.
I hope all goes well.
2 more weeks to prelims, if i'm not wrong.
Gotta do well, get my head in the game.
Difficulties come and go, no matter what we can do it.
"God wants you to know...
... that it's your heart that knows who loves you, not your ears or eyes.
This week hasn't really been a productive week.
I think i'm not gonna get a good pass this time round on my chem test.
I hope all goes well.
2 more weeks to prelims, if i'm not wrong.
Gotta do well, get my head in the game.
Difficulties come and go, no matter what we can do it.
"God wants you to know...
... that it's your heart that knows who loves you, not your ears or eyes.
Listen to the words, and you can be fooled. Look at the actions, and you can be fooled. You are loved only when you feel loved. Who makes your heart soar now? Well, what are you waiting for? "
This words from the facebook God message really got me thinking.
Things can be said easily.
And stuff to express our love for someone can be done.
But deep inside, in our hearts.
Do we really wanna try,
Willingly?
And when we feel the love.
Why hesitate, why not put the trust in this person.
Why think and ponder so much when we know the person already loves us so much?
Sometimes i wonder, when we love someone so much we say we are willing to try.
We tell them forever, we tell them not to worry.
But do we think before saying all these?
How long are we willing to try?
How long is forever?
And are we really sure we can live up to our assurences?
It may not be a promise, but everything said and done has a meaning.
How long is,"i'll always be there for you."?
"Thick and thin."
How thick?
How thin?
I always ask myself before saying this.
I just don't wanna hurt anyone or say it just make that someone happy.
No, i will never do that.
Cause in the end, we'll hurt that person even more.
I guess i feel, we shouldn't think to deeply into stuff.
And we really have to think before saying stuff.
If not we'll end up fooling the other with our lies.
And that'll hurt them so very much.
I'll never let that happen to anyone.
And i guess we shouldn't let that happen to anyone too.
The mind wants to, but the heart just can't do it.
This words from the facebook God message really got me thinking.
Things can be said easily.
And stuff to express our love for someone can be done.
But deep inside, in our hearts.
Do we really wanna try,
Willingly?
And when we feel the love.
Why hesitate, why not put the trust in this person.
Why think and ponder so much when we know the person already loves us so much?
Sometimes i wonder, when we love someone so much we say we are willing to try.
We tell them forever, we tell them not to worry.
But do we think before saying all these?
How long are we willing to try?
How long is forever?
And are we really sure we can live up to our assurences?
It may not be a promise, but everything said and done has a meaning.
How long is,"i'll always be there for you."?
"Thick and thin."
How thick?
How thin?
I always ask myself before saying this.
I just don't wanna hurt anyone or say it just make that someone happy.
No, i will never do that.
Cause in the end, we'll hurt that person even more.
I guess i feel, we shouldn't think to deeply into stuff.
And we really have to think before saying stuff.
If not we'll end up fooling the other with our lies.
And that'll hurt them so very much.
I'll never let that happen to anyone.
And i guess we shouldn't let that happen to anyone too.
The mind wants to, but the heart just can't do it.
- Mood:
thoughtful
Hope is always there.
There is no such thing as not having hopes.
No matter how bad things get.
Hope will always be there.
Only you can destroy your own hopes.
Only i can destoy my own hopes.
I can't destroy yours, nor can you destoy mine.
Hope, it feels ever so good.
I just read the "God has a message" thingy on facebook.
And right now i feel real stuck.
That i really am at wits end of not knowing what to do anymore.
I guess like everyone says, no matter how bad things get, God will be there.
I really really am at wits end and i guess this msg brings me.. hope.
My reflection:
"When you don't know what to do, when all hope is lost, when there's no one to turn to.
God will be there, He will always be there, he'll give us opportunities.
Opportunities to succeed.
He may have already given us opportunities, but we either see it but don't take it,
Or are caught up with our worldly stuff like studies and work to notice it.
Take a moment, have a quiet time, listen to the soft promptings.
You'll never know God may come to your ear, and whisper a word of encouragement to you."
There is no such thing as not having hopes.
No matter how bad things get.
Hope will always be there.
Only you can destroy your own hopes.
Only i can destoy my own hopes.
I can't destroy yours, nor can you destoy mine.
Hope, it feels ever so good.
I just read the "God has a message" thingy on facebook.
And right now i feel real stuck.
That i really am at wits end of not knowing what to do anymore.
I guess like everyone says, no matter how bad things get, God will be there.
I really really am at wits end and i guess this msg brings me.. hope.
"On this day of your life, Russell, we believe God wants you to know...
... that God has an important purpose for you, and made everything possible for you to succeed.
... that God has an important purpose for you, and made everything possible for you to succeed.
That's not to say it's an easy purpose, or a convenient one. It might very well seem hard or even impossible, but it only looks that way. The truth is that one day you will look back and see how all the pieces fit together. And how your life has been a complete and utter success"
My reflection:
"When you don't know what to do, when all hope is lost, when there's no one to turn to.
God will be there, He will always be there, he'll give us opportunities.
Opportunities to succeed.
He may have already given us opportunities, but we either see it but don't take it,
Or are caught up with our worldly stuff like studies and work to notice it.
Take a moment, have a quiet time, listen to the soft promptings.
You'll never know God may come to your ear, and whisper a word of encouragement to you."
- Mood: reflective
I totally forgot something.
TMR GETTING BACK CL O's RESULTS!
I'm not mentally prepared at all, i'm super scared.
I hope i at least get a B.
Really really hope so.
Darn i'm really losing my study mood.
After the long weekend i've played till i forgot my studies.
Though i studied abit just now, i could feel the mood wasn't there.
Come on 2 more weeks to prelims!
Gotta work hard.
Frisbee rocks!
Been playing it for 3 days la haha.
29th Nativity games day whoohoo!
Frisbee time.
I hope i still mean something.
And i hope i didn't let you down again.
I'm trying my best.
I hope everything will work out fine.
Hmmm.
"Open our eyes, to see the things that make Your heart cry."
TMR GETTING BACK CL O's RESULTS!
I'm not mentally prepared at all, i'm super scared.
I hope i at least get a B.
Really really hope so.
Darn i'm really losing my study mood.
After the long weekend i've played till i forgot my studies.
Though i studied abit just now, i could feel the mood wasn't there.
Come on 2 more weeks to prelims!
Gotta work hard.
Frisbee rocks!
Been playing it for 3 days la haha.
29th Nativity games day whoohoo!
Frisbee time.
I hope i still mean something.
And i hope i didn't let you down again.
I'm trying my best.
I hope everything will work out fine.
Hmmm.
"Open our eyes, to see the things that make Your heart cry."
- Mood:
distressed
Today i ponned school.
Cause kinda waste time la.
Go school for 2 hours and sing song haha.
Slept till 9.30.
Ate and played, oh man.
Then 1.30 went P&W jamming all the till 7 and meeting.
Kinda feel real empty today.
Not in a bad way, as in the troubles and stuff are gone temporarily.
When we started playing and singing, i felt everything inside, just coming out through the singing.
The troubles inside just came out and they were gone.
Singing and playing worship songs really helps to ease my mind.
Though it was just a jamming session.
The feeling was still felt, every word in each song had a meaning.
And i feel real good to sing praises and worship songs to Him.
Well i hope i'll be able to spread this feeling to the people out there someday.
By showing them how to praise God and worship him in music.
God gave us fingers to play instruments, He gave us voices to sing and he gave us music, to praise and worship him.
Cause kinda waste time la.
Go school for 2 hours and sing song haha.
Slept till 9.30.
Ate and played, oh man.
Then 1.30 went P&W jamming all the till 7 and meeting.
Kinda feel real empty today.
Not in a bad way, as in the troubles and stuff are gone temporarily.
When we started playing and singing, i felt everything inside, just coming out through the singing.
The troubles inside just came out and they were gone.
Singing and playing worship songs really helps to ease my mind.
Though it was just a jamming session.
The feeling was still felt, every word in each song had a meaning.
And i feel real good to sing praises and worship songs to Him.
Well i hope i'll be able to spread this feeling to the people out there someday.
By showing them how to praise God and worship him in music.
God gave us fingers to play instruments, He gave us voices to sing and he gave us music, to praise and worship him.
Saviour King-Hillsongs United
Let now the weak say I have strength
By the Spirit of power that raised Christ from the dead
Let now the poor stand and confess
That my portion is in Him and I'm more than blessed
Let now our hearts burn with a flame
A fire consuming all for Your Son's holy Name
And with the heavens we declare
You are our King
We love You Lord, we worship You
You are our God, You alone are good (to verse 2: 1st time)
You asked Your Son to carry this
The heavy cross, our weight of sin
I love You Lord, I worship You
Hope which was lost, now stands renewed
I give my life to honour this
The love of Christ, the Saviour King
Let now Your church shine as the bride
That You saw in Your heart as You offered up Your life
Let now the lost be welcomed home
By the saved and redeemed those adopted as Your own
- Mood:
hopeful
2 and a half more weeks left to prelims!
I passed my vectors test today and yeah real glad i'm improving.
And i did well for chem.
But it's not the end of the race, it's almost time for the final sprint.
The part i've been saving all my energy for.
The part where i'll have to let it all out.
With just a bit more effort and sacrifice, i know i'll be able to do it.
I want to do well, but wanting isn't enough.
Gotta work for it, gotta work hard for it.
11 points here i come!
Kinda scared next week, it's chinese results day.
I passed my vectors test today and yeah real glad i'm improving.
And i did well for chem.
But it's not the end of the race, it's almost time for the final sprint.
The part i've been saving all my energy for.
The part where i'll have to let it all out.
With just a bit more effort and sacrifice, i know i'll be able to do it.
I want to do well, but wanting isn't enough.
Gotta work for it, gotta work hard for it.
11 points here i come!
Kinda scared next week, it's chinese results day.
- Mood:
determined
It's been real troubling these days.
The feelings and stuff.
And now i guess i'll have to let it out.
I'm really confused about stuff, i don't know where i stand.
I don't know what's going on, and it's bugging me.
I really can't bring myself to do it.
But i really feel tired.
I'm really feeling tired of these stuff.
I've tried my hardest.
But i guess it's not good enough.
And i really don't even know what will be good enough.
Cause everything i do seems wrong.
Sigh.
Been listening to the song with everything by hillsongs.
It's a really comforting experience.
I'm really really moved by the song and i feel God is really speaking in there.
This video is totally amazing.
I'm totally lost for words to express how great it is.
Though things may seem low now.
I know i can carry on.
With God's grace and guidance.
I know i won't repeat my mistake time and time again.
It's time to wake up, sit up and speak up.
Open our eyes
To see the things that make Your heart cry
To be the church that You would desire
Your light to be seen
Break down our pride
And all the walls we’ve built up inside
Our earthly crowns and all our desires
We lay at Your feet
Let hope rise
And darkness tremble
In Your holy light
That every eye will see
Jesus our God
Great and mighty to be praised
God of all days
Glorious in all of Your ways
Oh the majesty the wonder and grace
In the light of Your Name
With everything
With everything
We will shout for Your glory
With everything
With everything
We will shout forth Your praise
Our hearts they cry
Be glorified
Be lifted high above all names
For You our King
With everything
We will shout forth Your praise
The feelings and stuff.
And now i guess i'll have to let it out.
I'm really confused about stuff, i don't know where i stand.
I don't know what's going on, and it's bugging me.
I really can't bring myself to do it.
But i really feel tired.
I'm really feeling tired of these stuff.
I've tried my hardest.
But i guess it's not good enough.
And i really don't even know what will be good enough.
Cause everything i do seems wrong.
Sigh.
Been listening to the song with everything by hillsongs.
It's a really comforting experience.
I'm really really moved by the song and i feel God is really speaking in there.
This video is totally amazing.
I'm totally lost for words to express how great it is.
Though things may seem low now.
I know i can carry on.
With God's grace and guidance.
I know i won't repeat my mistake time and time again.
It's time to wake up, sit up and speak up.
Open our eyes
To see the things that make Your heart cry
To be the church that You would desire
Your light to be seen
Break down our pride
And all the walls we’ve built up inside
Our earthly crowns and all our desires
We lay at Your feet
Let hope rise
And darkness tremble
In Your holy light
That every eye will see
Jesus our God
Great and mighty to be praised
God of all days
Glorious in all of Your ways
Oh the majesty the wonder and grace
In the light of Your Name
With everything
With everything
We will shout for Your glory
With everything
With everything
We will shout forth Your praise
Our hearts they cry
Be glorified
Be lifted high above all names
For You our King
With everything
We will shout forth Your praise
- Mood:
listless
Prelims are 3 weeks away.
At least i've woken up abit.
Still half asleep but it's better than being asleep.
I've started to go to every remedial school has to offer.
But i still gotta step up, i'm not doing enough.
I've gotta do better.
I cannot give up, i know i can do it.
I wanna do well, i have to.
I've been thinking bout stuff.
And i feel like sometimes i really gotta say things that inside.
But everytime i want to, i stop myself.
Cause i feel i don't have the right to do so.
I really am still wondering, what in the world is going on.
It's so confusing.
Forget about it they say, studies more important, O's o's!
Come on O's and books aren't 24/7 of my life.
I just really hope you notice me for what i'm doing and who i am.
People ask me how how how.
All i can say is, i don't know, i really don't.
I'm afraid those words will come out again.
And i'm not gonna lie that i'm not expecting it.
It's just so confusing.
I really don't know what to say and the thought of it is really scary.
I'm really trying very hard.
I just wish one day i'll get noticed by you.
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle,
Life is a maze and love is riddle.
At least i've woken up abit.
Still half asleep but it's better than being asleep.
I've started to go to every remedial school has to offer.
But i still gotta step up, i'm not doing enough.
I've gotta do better.
I cannot give up, i know i can do it.
I wanna do well, i have to.
I've been thinking bout stuff.
And i feel like sometimes i really gotta say things that inside.
But everytime i want to, i stop myself.
Cause i feel i don't have the right to do so.
I really am still wondering, what in the world is going on.
It's so confusing.
Forget about it they say, studies more important, O's o's!
Come on O's and books aren't 24/7 of my life.
I just really hope you notice me for what i'm doing and who i am.
People ask me how how how.
All i can say is, i don't know, i really don't.
I'm afraid those words will come out again.
And i'm not gonna lie that i'm not expecting it.
It's just so confusing.
I really don't know what to say and the thought of it is really scary.
I'm really trying very hard.
I just wish one day i'll get noticed by you.
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle,
Life is a maze and love is riddle.
- Mood: thoughtful
No weeping, no hurt or pain.
No suffering, You hold me now, You hold me now.
No darkness, no sick or lame.
No hiding ,You hold me now, You hold me now.
I just wish everything would be alright.
I've been hearing hillsongs alot since saturday, been really helping through this times.
It's getting harder and harder, i've still not forgotten the words.
Wake up, Sit up, Speak up...
Oh well today i listened to the song Soon.
Well i've been praying for stuff to be alright soon.
And this song speaks alot to me.
I just wish everything will turn out fine.
For you, and for me.
I just keep hoping, though it seems real hard now.
That soon and very soon, everything will be alright.
No suffering, You hold me now, You hold me now.
No darkness, no sick or lame.
No hiding ,You hold me now, You hold me now.
I just wish everything would be alright.
I've been hearing hillsongs alot since saturday, been really helping through this times.
It's getting harder and harder, i've still not forgotten the words.
Wake up, Sit up, Speak up...
Oh well today i listened to the song Soon.
Well i've been praying for stuff to be alright soon.
And this song speaks alot to me.
I just wish everything will turn out fine.
For you, and for me.
I just keep hoping, though it seems real hard now.
That soon and very soon, everything will be alright.
- Mood: sad
Hillsongs was totally smashing awesome today!
The concert was so amazing.
Really great P&W songs they can do and the mood was totally awesome.
Was jumping around during the high songs and reflecting during those slow songs.
Awesome awesome awesome whoo!
The pastor talk there i actually wanted to not listen.
But something told me to stay.
And the talk totally hit me.
Though his christian but wow the things he said really hit me.
The words "speak up!" kept on speaking to me.
Well it was a great concert.
Really had a great time, totally felt my troubles go away.
God was truly present there.
Oh well, back to reality.
The concert was so amazing.
Really great P&W songs they can do and the mood was totally awesome.
Was jumping around during the high songs and reflecting during those slow songs.
Awesome awesome awesome whoo!
The pastor talk there i actually wanted to not listen.
But something told me to stay.
And the talk totally hit me.
Though his christian but wow the things he said really hit me.
The words "speak up!" kept on speaking to me.
Well it was a great concert.
Really had a great time, totally felt my troubles go away.
God was truly present there.
Oh well, back to reality.
- Mood: thoughtful
I'm not asking for months.
I'm not asking for days.
Cause even a few hours is hard enough.
I'm trying my best.
But even i do fall sometimes.
Maybe today is one of those days.
I'm feeling tired.
All i want, is the sun to shine again.
All i want, is to see that smile again.
A second, a minute, an hour, a day goes by.
I'm hopin' just to be by your side.
I'm turnin' the handle, it won't open.
Don't make me wait 'cause right now I need your smile.
Knock, knock.
I'm not asking for days.
Cause even a few hours is hard enough.
I'm trying my best.
But even i do fall sometimes.
Maybe today is one of those days.
I'm feeling tired.
All i want, is the sun to shine again.
All i want, is to see that smile again.
A second, a minute, an hour, a day goes by.
I'm hopin' just to be by your side.
I'm turnin' the handle, it won't open.
Don't make me wait 'cause right now I need your smile.
Knock, knock.
- Mood: lonely
I still cannot forget tuesday argh.
Hmmm what happened on tues.
Oh yeah Chinese orals!
Damn i screwed up so badly i can't forget the teacher's expression.
I'm so dead i think i will definitely need to retake.
Darn my studies are very bad.
After 2 days MC and sleeping at home.
I really gotta catch up.
I need my points to enter the course i want.
Oh yeah.
Found one more course to consider at Ngee Ann poly haha.
Veterainary bioscience.
It's a new course, i think to help stop the spread of the various animal flus.
Wow it'll be so cool if i, in the future found the cure for these.
Haha.
Hmmm.
Gotta work hard i guess.
Hmmm what happened on tues.
Oh yeah Chinese orals!
Damn i screwed up so badly i can't forget the teacher's expression.
I'm so dead i think i will definitely need to retake.
Darn my studies are very bad.
After 2 days MC and sleeping at home.
I really gotta catch up.
I need my points to enter the course i want.
Oh yeah.
Found one more course to consider at Ngee Ann poly haha.
Veterainary bioscience.
It's a new course, i think to help stop the spread of the various animal flus.
Wow it'll be so cool if i, in the future found the cure for these.
Haha.
Hmmm.
Gotta work hard i guess.
- Mood: uncomfortable
Today was quite a good day.
Haha though tuition was rather boring.
I guess well the rest of the day was good.
I went to my aunt's place, so long never see my relatives.
Always had something on during family functions.
Caught up with my cousins.
Haha, well, guess what, I'VE GOT A NEW DOG!
Haha.
Another shi tzu puppy, 1 and a half months old.
Really innocent looking haha.
Super cute.
But not forgetting little Tarou!
Gotta balance the affection for them i guess.
Anyway his name is Toshi!
Welcome to the family Toshi:D
Just wanna say this words,"Everything will be alright, you're doing just fine."
(:
I see the fear that's in your eyes
Feel the pain you try to hide,
It's alright, it's alright
I can see you on your knees
Don't give up 'cuz it will be
Alright, Alright
And you'll be alright, you'll be alright
Alright, Alright
- Mood:
cheerful
O's draw ever closer, i'm still slacking.
Still sleeping in class like crazy.
I don't know why my school table feels so comfortable.
I sit down a while i'll feel like sleeping.
Haha.
Darn i gotta step up my studying.
2 hours a day is not enough.
But it's so hard.
I've never actually sat down and study in my 3 years of secondary school life.
Gotta focus, and pay attention.
This year is my life year, fail and bye bye future.
If it's gonna be a rainy day
There's nothing we can do to make it change
We can pray for sunny weather
But that won't stop the rain
Feeling like you got no place to run
I can be your shelter 'til it's done
We can make this last forever
So please don't stop the rain.
Still sleeping in class like crazy.
I don't know why my school table feels so comfortable.
I sit down a while i'll feel like sleeping.
Haha.
Darn i gotta step up my studying.
2 hours a day is not enough.
But it's so hard.
I've never actually sat down and study in my 3 years of secondary school life.
Gotta focus, and pay attention.
This year is my life year, fail and bye bye future.
If it's gonna be a rainy day
There's nothing we can do to make it change
We can pray for sunny weather
But that won't stop the rain
Feeling like you got no place to run
I can be your shelter 'til it's done
We can make this last forever
So please don't stop the rain.
- Mood:
content
Coming to 2 weeks of term three already.
Wow time sure flies.
It seems like only yesterday that i was enjoying the last week of hols haha.
Well, i gotta kick my bad habit of sleeping in class.
Wow it's like almost every lesson i'll sleep awhile.
Gotta stop late nights already.
Chinese o's oral next tuesday, super scared what might come out.
Gotta get my head in the game.
Would i rather play now ,suffer later.
Or suffer now, play later.
I still have many years left to play, but only 3 months left to study.
Really gotta drill this mindset in my head.
Realise-Colbie Calliat
Take time to realize
That your warmth is crashing down on in
Take time to realize that I am on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you
But I can't spell it out for you
No, it's never gonna be that simple
No, I can't spell it out for you
If you just realize what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other and we'll never find another
Just realize what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if we missed out on each other now
Take time to realize, oh, oh, I'm on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you
Take time to realize, this all can pass you by
Didn't I tell you
But I can't spell it out for you
No, it's never gonna be that simple
No, I can't spell it out for you
If you just realize what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other and we'll never find another
Just realize what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if we missed out on each other
But, it's not all the same, no, it's never the same
If you don't feel it to, if you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way
It could be the same for you
If you just realize what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other and we'll never find another
Just realize what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
Just realize what I just realized
If you just realize what I just realized
Ooh, ooh
Missed out on each other now
Missed out on each other now, yeah
Realize, realize, realize, realize, oh
Wow time sure flies.
It seems like only yesterday that i was enjoying the last week of hols haha.
Well, i gotta kick my bad habit of sleeping in class.
Wow it's like almost every lesson i'll sleep awhile.
Gotta stop late nights already.
Chinese o's oral next tuesday, super scared what might come out.
Gotta get my head in the game.
Would i rather play now ,suffer later.
Or suffer now, play later.
I still have many years left to play, but only 3 months left to study.
Really gotta drill this mindset in my head.
Realise-Colbie Calliat
Take time to realize
That your warmth is crashing down on in
Take time to realize that I am on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you
But I can't spell it out for you
No, it's never gonna be that simple
No, I can't spell it out for you
If you just realize what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other and we'll never find another
Just realize what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if we missed out on each other now
Take time to realize, oh, oh, I'm on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you
Take time to realize, this all can pass you by
Didn't I tell you
But I can't spell it out for you
No, it's never gonna be that simple
No, I can't spell it out for you
If you just realize what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other and we'll never find another
Just realize what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if we missed out on each other
But, it's not all the same, no, it's never the same
If you don't feel it to, if you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way
It could be the same for you
If you just realize what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other and we'll never find another
Just realize what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
Just realize what I just realized
If you just realize what I just realized
Ooh, ooh
Missed out on each other now
Missed out on each other now, yeah
Realize, realize, realize, realize, oh
- Mood:
happy
I'd rather you talk to me only when no one's there,
Than not talk to me at all.
I'd rather you vent out on me,
Than not talking to me at all.
I don't mind being there and listening to you talk about your day,
Rather than not listening to you at all.
I'm really thankful that we're talking more now.
And I'd just like to say no matter what I will cherish every single moment.
During the time I'm hanging out with you, talking with you and of course listening, to you.
I'll always be here to listen and talk.
Cause to me these times are priceless, and I don't wish to lose it, not again.
:)
Than not talk to me at all.
I'd rather you vent out on me,
Than not talking to me at all.
I don't mind being there and listening to you talk about your day,
Rather than not listening to you at all.
I'm really thankful that we're talking more now.
And I'd just like to say no matter what I will cherish every single moment.
During the time I'm hanging out with you, talking with you and of course listening, to you.
I'll always be here to listen and talk.
Cause to me these times are priceless, and I don't wish to lose it, not again.
:)
- Mood:
thankful
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